new start

here i am.

i came back here to just express my feelings on this particular but not-uncommon day im feeling sad or let's say down.

when i was writing on the blog here for a class, i was not "girlfriend" type of girl. i had tried my best every day for just myself to improve myself little by little.

of course i did need my wonderful friends to survive my "all-by-myself" life in this foreign country, but i didnt really need someone "special". i had lived on my own.

then now, here i am.

what am i doing? why did i become such a dependent person? oh my, i dont really like my weak mind at all!

every day, what i do is just make a bento for him. thats it! really, what am i doing?

and now, he doesnt even need it for tomorrow. i do understand he has been soooo busy for work these days, and its not something like he just doesnt want it. but still, when he says he doesnt need it, hey, i just feel so empty or useless.

so what was my today? what did i do today? i totally wasted a day. a very presious day.

geez, i should do something for myself. i should do something productive. i should do something i can feel good in the end of the day.

what am i doing here? i dont wanna ask this stupid question to myself anymore.

from today, this is my place to express whatever i feel.

tomorrow is another day, julie!