How have you been these days? Has the new year, 2013, been treating you well? It's been a while since I wrote to you.
In 2012, there had been so much to me. The breaking up was really overwhelming, and it had taken so long to even stop thinking about it or him. I still am not sure if I dont think about him at all anymore, but it sure does not come up to my mind every freaking day anymore. I assume it is a good thing, but I feel a bit strange when I realize that I have not thought about him so much or it doesnt hurt so much when I think about him. Am I getting over him finally? Now I sure does know that I can live without him. Yes, of course I have known that I can live without him, but now I really feel it in a real way. Maybe I should be happy about it, and I am happy that I dont need to cry every night missing him. But at the same time, I dont know how to describe how I am feeling, but, I sometime feel like... "Really? Am I getting over him? Is it really ending? Are we really really done now? Am I okay with getting over him and forgetting about him?" I am confused.
Now I have a guy who keeps telling me he likes me, and I do like getting his attention, and I appreciate him a lot. I know I am getting over him thanks to this guy. I think I like this guy too.
But then, why am I questioning whether Im really okay with getting over him? I have absolutely no idea, and I feel a bit guilty thinking like this.
What am I doing?
